we practised really hard within the less-than-a-week time frame , getting coutless scoldings from seniors , stayed back everyday before the performance just to brush up on the movements . and you know what happened ?
the music suddenly stopped playing . like in the middle of all those applause , the music got cut off . and we rushed down the stage in a messy way .
we practised so freaking hard you know ?! and now what , only be left with this kind of shit ? ):
then after escaping from the backstage i burst into tears , uncontrollable because our hard work had gone to waste . just like you snap your fingers to perform a magic trick . hard work all gone to become those tiny dust particles that you see on the stage . couldnt stop crying . really . reason being nobody understands how hard we had practised for this ! nobody saw us practising . HaoNalaoshi is right . the audience only want to see the result , not the process . the result is what they actually care about . and that is so unfair ! we practised every single day before the actual performance ! and now what , 1/3 of dance completed only ! ):
when i went to ishi mura with angel they all i saw dennislim . then he was pointing at me and telling his friends stuff . confirm talking about my performance and how it ended messily . like seriously ?!
YOU NEVER WITNESSED THE WHOLE PROCESS . YOU DIDNT WITNESSED HOW I GOT SCOLDED BY SENIORS EVERY PRACTICE . YOU NEVER WITNESSED HOW I KEPT SPINNING ROUND AND ROUND AND ROUND TILL I GOT HEADACHE . YOU NEVER WITNESSED HOW MY CONTACT LENS DROPPED OUT RIGHT BEFORE ENTERING BACKSTAGE . YOU NEVER WITNESSED THE HEADACHE I GOT AFTER ONLY HAVING 1 EYE WITH CONTACT LENS . SINCE YOU NEVER WITNESSED ANYTHING , WHY CRITICISE ?! LIKE SERIOUSLY , FUCK YOU .
CCHYCD cried together after the performance that hastily ended . feedback from the parents are that it was really nice . my friends said that i looked really pretty on stage . (: joanne said that got junior say we looked pretty too . :D
but .. nobody would ever see how the performance is supposed to look like except CCHYID right ? so nobody would ever know , how our hard work is supposed to look like right ?
does anybody know that feeling when you actually worked hard for something but then your hard work crumbles to dust IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES ?
dont wish to talk about it anymore . bye .
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