those late night conversations , that last till 1 plus , 2 plus , where have they all gone ?
you must have forgotten about me .
thats why we rarely text now .
even if we text , it only lasts for 1 hour at most .
i really miss your texts .
when someone texts me my mind automatically flashes your name but the text isnt from you .
i hate starting conversations , they make me feel like im annoying .
but i really miss seeing your name .
your contact name keeps downgrading , to a plain your name .
i miss your texts .
i miss everything you gave me .
i miss all the shared memories .
have you forgotten about them ?
well i havent .
im still stuck at the past .
call me dumb or whatever , but i really miss you .
idk how you managed to escape to the present .
your have decided your future , you dont want me to be part of it .
what have i done wrong ?
do you actually love me ? if you did you would have put in efforts in making the relationship alive . you didnt do anything . lets just end here .
didnt have enough sleep . went to lie on bed at 12 , dont know what time slept . then woke up at 9.30 . very tired but dont want to go and sleep . he said he would text back by 12 , i waited till 12 , he didnt reply . he didnt put in any effort . whats the use ? he didnt put in any effort in making the relationship alive . maybe i should just be back to single , at least i can like more than 1 person instead of being so committed to 1 . at least i wont be burdened with always texting him and getting scolded for always using my phone . at least i'll feel happier . wait . will i be happier ? everything's gonna be so weird . will i be happier ? this shall be one question to ponder about today .
i never stopped loving you . you stopped first .
today 8 pm got the xiangsheng thing i dont want go plus i too lazy to leave my house ! was calling soonxuan then layhian picked up . recognised her voice immediately i pro right . (: more positive today at least more lively le lah not so negative like some turd .
right now damn sian lah so when talking to soonxuan that time my voice like some boring turd == whatever .
very tired now , thought today was sunday when its actually saturday aiya my body clock is failing me and my immune system also gonna fail me lerh lah gonna fall sick soon D: nua-ing at home and rotting ! ): want to go out but too lazy to move even an inch (: no wonder im getting fatter o: cause too lazy to move then never exercise much then become fatter o: horror . maybe tomorrow going jogging . must go burn fats lerh lah , cannot only rely on dance o: feel like dying now damn tired but i dont want move now but i cant sleep sitting down right so i dont know how to sleep oh please just take away my life at least if i die nobody would be grieving over it right . cause my existence is plain useless . hais .
right now damn sian lah so when talking to soonxuan that time my voice like some boring turd == whatever .
very tired now , thought today was sunday when its actually saturday aiya my body clock is failing me and my immune system also gonna fail me lerh lah gonna fall sick soon D: nua-ing at home and rotting ! ): want to go out but too lazy to move even an inch (: no wonder im getting fatter o: cause too lazy to move then never exercise much then become fatter o: horror . maybe tomorrow going jogging . must go burn fats lerh lah , cannot only rely on dance o: feel like dying now damn tired but i dont want move now but i cant sleep sitting down right so i dont know how to sleep oh please just take away my life at least if i die nobody would be grieving over it right . cause my existence is plain useless . hais .
ANY SONGS TO RECOMMEND ? dying from boredom lerh lah ):
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